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rockstarpeach at 10:12am on 07/06/2011 under character: castiel, character: dean winchester, character: sam winchester, fic - spn, fic - spn: put you down for a while
rockstarpeach at 10:12am on 07/06/2011 under character: castiel, character: dean winchester, character: sam winchester, fic - spn, fic - spn: put you down for a whileTitle: Put You Down For a While
Rating: Adult
Pairings/Characters: Dean/Sam, slight Sam/Other, mention of Dean/Others, some Cas, Bobby cameo
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rockstarpeach
Artist:spikessire, who was amazing and super fast and gave me so many options. Go check out her wonderful art post HERE and leave some love.
Warnings: language, sex, infidelity
Word count: 27K
Summary: Sam hasn’t always been in love with Dean. He is now though, and despite his initial reservations, they’re together and they’re happy. Or they are until Dean suddenly starts to shut Sam out without explanation and Sam is driven to making a mistake that Dean might not be able to forgive.
Packed full of brother issues and lover issues and angst and jealousy and insecurity and that special kind of dysfunction that only the Winchesters can deliver. A story about a hard time in a relationship, set against a backdrop of fairly ordinary hunting jobs and nosey secondary characters.
Beta: TheCouchCarrot, who may or may not have made me cry (on several occasions) but who definitely helped to whip this fic into shape. Thank you so much, you are amazing! Also, thanks toash_carpenter for a final once over, which she agreed to because she’s so giving and selfless and not at all because she got to read this a week early.
A/N 1: As for timeline, I’d say mid S6. It is however only vaguely canonish, so there really aren’t any spoilers.
A/N 2: Sequel to ’Blow Me’ and ‘How to Date Your Brother’. You do not have to read those first, so don’t worry. The only reason you might want to is to find out exactly how the boys got to the place they’re in when this fic starts, which is a relatively happy, committed sexual and romantic relationship. Also, if you have read those and are looking for more of the same, you’re not going to find it here. This story differs extremely in both style and tone.
Rating: Adult
Pairings/Characters: Dean/Sam, slight Sam/Other, mention of Dean/Others, some Cas, Bobby cameo
Author:
rockstarpeachArtist:
spikessire, who was amazing and super fast and gave me so many options. Go check out her wonderful art post HERE and leave some love.Warnings: language, sex, infidelity
Word count: 27K
Summary: Sam hasn’t always been in love with Dean. He is now though, and despite his initial reservations, they’re together and they’re happy. Or they are until Dean suddenly starts to shut Sam out without explanation and Sam is driven to making a mistake that Dean might not be able to forgive.
Packed full of brother issues and lover issues and angst and jealousy and insecurity and that special kind of dysfunction that only the Winchesters can deliver. A story about a hard time in a relationship, set against a backdrop of fairly ordinary hunting jobs and nosey secondary characters.
Beta: TheCouchCarrot, who may or may not have made me cry (on several occasions) but who definitely helped to whip this fic into shape. Thank you so much, you are amazing! Also, thanks to
ash_carpenter for a final once over, which she agreed to because she’s so giving and selfless and not at all because she got to read this a week early.A/N 1: As for timeline, I’d say mid S6. It is however only vaguely canonish, so there really aren’t any spoilers.
A/N 2: Sequel to ’Blow Me’ and ‘How to Date Your Brother’. You do not have to read those first, so don’t worry. The only reason you might want to is to find out exactly how the boys got to the place they’re in when this fic starts, which is a relatively happy, committed sexual and romantic relationship. Also, if you have read those and are looking for more of the same, you’re not going to find it here. This story differs extremely in both style and tone.
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Re: pdf?
http://archiveofourown.org/works/209587
I'm pretty sure you can download a pdf from there.
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I'm guessing Cas knows about the boys relationship and Dean is feeling guilty which is why he has been keeping his distance from Sam, but if that is the case I dont know why Dean just wouldnt tell Sam instead of acting like a dick. So maybe I'm all wrong about why Dean has been acting the way he has.
While I can understand Sam being upset and confused what he did was truly unforgivable especially since he was the one that was always gong on at Dean about being faithful.
going to read part 2 now.
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And hopefully you'll be able to forgive Sam by the end. Honestly, I was more upset with Dean for the way he was treating Sam.
SPOILER ALARM
But I have to say it was an AWESOME read. I read it in one go. And I shouldnt have that much time. Well it didnt took that long Maybe two hours? My eyes just soaked it right up.
The first part, where its all ok. Where they have their date. WOW I love this moment. Commitment ftw!! ^^
Well as Sam cheated on dean... NOOOO! And I was seriously worried you would made Cas a bad guy. but it was great! btw I loved Deans snappy monolouge about fucking cas. And yeah the prettyboy angel so would give up his ass for Dean *lol* Anyway it was great that he didnt bothered that much about incest but about Sam beeing Sam and leaving Dean or betraying him. What I kind of missed was a point out of Deans withdraw of Sex. I mean Dean was afraid Sam used him to get off and that sam thought Dean wasnt good enough. So he tried and took Sex mostly out of their relationship to see what they have. maybe if he would have talked to sam beforehand it wouldnt had gone to a disaster ;). So Sam doesnt get real Sex anymore and what does he? He fucks a stranger. I would have liked if Castiel had pointed that more out to sam in the last part so Sam could have seen more clearly why Dean was so insecure. That Dean thought there Relationship was all about sex and he got his confirmation as Sam cheated on him.
Course Dean is a stupid moron cause he could have talked to Sam about his feelings. But Dean beeing Dean wouldnt do this cause it would skyrocket his Gayometer. *lol*
ok There are many many more things I would like to point out but I dont have Time.... So I just want to point out my absolute most favourite line which made me all schmoopy inside and giggling like a girl.
Quote:“We gonna be sweeties again or what?”
This made my day. Adoreable Dean is the best of them all! Just wanted to cuddle him right then and there. ^^
ok thanks for this story even though I am sad to see it ending. .... or is there maybe more in it?
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(everyone who doesnt let dean come short to sam in the junk department is my personal hero) LOL!!! I know, right?
The point about Dean holding out on sex was sort of hard to get across, because it was all Sam's POV. I only had a few lines and a few actions to make the point, but it wasn't supposed to be that he thinks Sam's using him for sex so he cuts him off to see if Sam sticks around. He knows Sam loves him. He just doesn't think he's good enough and he's worried that one day Sam will realise that and leave him.
The point was that Cas sort of got in his head and every time Dean went near Sam he couldn't stop thinking about Cas watching them, judging them. So when they did it he needed it quick and in the dark, until finally he couldn't even do that anymore. Plus, he was pulling away because he was trying to protect himself from getting hurt when things ended (like Dean was sure they would).
But yes, Dean really should have just SAID SOMETHING :)
And I really liked that line, too! Thanks so much!
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That being said.
I don't know if I agree with Dean taking Sam back. Yeah, Dean pulled away, acted like the biggest dick in the world, but he didn't deserve Sam cheating on him.
I can read anything. Non-con, dub-con, boys beating the crap out of each other, but-- boys being in love and one of them cheating? Ouch. That hurts my heart.
And I can't even imagine what it does for Dean. The way you write him, I can see him so perfectly. He's a boiling pot of insecurities and let's be honest, he loves Sam with everything he's got. And he's not used to feeling that warmth, and comfort -- so automatically he assumes that he's not good enough for it. Do I blame him? Hell no. His momma left him, Daddy raised him into an obedient solider and his own brother betrayed him a few times to boot.
Yeah, it's wrong. And yeah, Sam had no idea what was going on-- but it doesn't make the pain any less apparent for Dean. The way I see it, Dean doesn't like remembering these things. He hates thinking about old wounds cause they bring EVERY single one of his issues to the surface and he begins questioning EVERYTHING. Which is pointedly the reason he has such a hot and cold relationship with Sam.
And I think, Sam being the closest person to Dean, should see that. And he kind of doesn't. I don't know if love's supposed to make you blind-- but the way I see it, Dean's kinda obvious. When was the last time he worked so hard at something? He tries. Yeah, it's not the best in the world, but he gives it his best shot.
I think Sam should've appreciated that more. And even in general, I don't think Dean gets a fifth of a recognition that he deserves.
I dunnno. I'm weird. I would've made Sam work for it more. But then again, this is completely legit too. By denying Sam, Dean's only denying himself-- and then we go back to the circle of fuckery and co-dependency.
So in conclusion, thank you for mind fucking me once again-- and-- making me sob like a bitch in heat.
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you did a great job here, really, I could picture it "behind the scene" perfectly.
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Yeah, this one was painful to write, but I wanted to sort of take what happened to them as brothers in season four and early season 5 and sort of rewrite that idea in a romantic relationship.
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Btw I watched the last episode and couldn't stop thinking about how incredibly you caught their characters, all their brain fuck and painful connection and nnnngh
I think you totally succeed, it's like behind the scene, breathtakingly believable.
I discovered just now you have a huge porny prequel! \o/ Yay, I'm lucky! Now I just have to figure out when I have some free time to read it =))))
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Yeah, this part hurt.
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Amazing work, Thank you for sharing this!!!
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Yeah, Dean was definitely a huge jackass in this story, but I feel like he really does this kind of jackassy thing a lot in the show. He's always shutting Sam out and thinking he knows better and so I wanted Dean to eventually realise that he was wrong, and apologise for it.
Anyway, glad you like it :)