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Title:  All I’ve Got to Give

Author:  [livejournal.com profile] rockstarpeach 

Artist:  [livejournal.com profile] kanagata 

Pairings:  Dean/Cas primarily.   Others include SPOILERS, though I know some people like to be warned. Cas/Sam, Dean/Gabriel, Cas/OCs. References to Dean/OCs, Sam/OCs, Sam/Jess. 

Summary:  Castiel thinks he’s too good for relationships, and Dean is terrified of them.  They both fall hard and fast, even though they try to fight it, and the imbalance of power that results after Castiel tries to force Dean into staying with him, when Dean decides things are going too far, makes it even harder for them to have something real.

AU story, in which Castiel is a wealthy CEO suffering from a bad case of unrequited love, Gabriel is his dickhead brother, Sam is a happy and (mostly) well adjusted 18 year old, and Dean is a high school drop-out working at a garage by day and a bar by night to support himself and his little brother.

Word Count:  ~85,800

Warnings: Coercion, power play, explicit sex (slash only, no het), foul language, occasional bouts of sluttiness, from all four main characters. Brief, non-graphic mention of past one-time Wincest.

Beta:  The lovely [livejournal.com profile] ash_carpenter, who pointed out the parts that didn’t work, and gently broke the news that commas were cheating on me with exclamation points, so perhaps I should stop loving them quite so much.




 
 

 
 

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posted by [identity profile] siriuslyinluv71.livejournal.com at 04:35pm on 09/06/2010
Oh no. Oh no no no no! I don't want to get dragged into reading this.
-MUST RESIST- xP

You know very well I won't resist this-- hell fucking no. <3
I am gonna start reading it this weekend.

-BOOKMARKS-

*coughsreallyloudly*writemoresamanddean*totallyendshercoughingspree*
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 01:47am on 10/06/2010
Oh, Yes yes yes!!! You know you want to read it!!

:)

And honey, I'd love to hear what you think, knowing that you're a diea hard Dean/Sam fan and all. *hugs*
 
posted by [identity profile] olympia-m.livejournal.com at 05:25pm on 09/06/2010
YES, YES, YES!
*bounce*
I love AUs....

Now, if only I had some free time - it might take me a week to read this the way work is going.... But I will read it! I will!!!!

thank you so much!
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 01:48am on 10/06/2010
Oh, thank you so much! I certainly hope that you read it, and if you do, I'd like to hear what you think.
 
posted by [identity profile] sycophantastic.livejournal.com at 06:52pm on 09/06/2010
It might take me a while too, but I'll be reading this!

*squirms a bit at the Sam/Cas Dean/Gabe pairings...* Sorry, I just... I'm such a freaky OTP girl! You said this was primarily Dean/Cas though, right? \o/
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 01:50am on 10/06/2010
Yes, I understand being true to your OTP, but honestly, in this fic, Dean and Cas are head over heels for each other. They do sleep around a bit, but they really only have eyes for each other.

I really hope you can get past that, and give this a chance!

*hugs*
 
posted by [identity profile] dime-for-12.livejournal.com at 07:07pm on 09/06/2010
you know, I don't even read Dean/Cas, but...I have to read this one - the summary sucked me in, and the fic sounds awesome.

can't wait to read :DDD
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 01:52am on 10/06/2010
I hope you like it! And even if you don't, I'd appreciate feedback, so I know where I went wrong.
 
posted by [identity profile] ayah-anala.livejournal.com at 07:21pm on 09/06/2010
OMG! This looks amazing! Is it 5:00 yet? No? crap.
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 01:52am on 10/06/2010
Awww, thanks! I hope you like!
 
posted by [identity profile] mjluvspolar.livejournal.com at 09:21pm on 09/06/2010
I've got zero time for reading today, but I've just saved this and my Saturday looks set! Thanks for sharing. :)
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 01:52am on 10/06/2010
I hope you like it :)
 
posted by [identity profile] siennis.livejournal.com at 08:16pm on 13/06/2010
I'm so gonna be reading this :) I have a busy day today, but I'll be reading it first thing tomorrow!

I adored your This and so much more story, and I know I'm going to love this!

Wincest is squiffy for me, but since it says Dean/Castiel, I'll be reading it XD
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 01:15am on 14/06/2010
I'm glad you liked 'This, and So Much More'. This story is nothing like that one. Way more angst and way less schmoop :) But you've obviously read the warnings.

The Wincest is really barely a mention. It's not at all detailed, and I think it was actually pretty innocent and sad.

I hope you enjoy this one :)
 
posted by (anonymous) at 12:10am on 14/06/2010
I really really loved it. Halfway through the story I worried that it might be too angsty for me. I am glad you listed all the warnings and stuff upfront, cause otherwise I would have stopped reading after the Sam/Cas incident thinking that you just like messing with your readers and that there wouldn't be a happy ending. I am now going to read it all again in the safe knowledge that I can get invested into the story and that it has a happy ending. Thank you for sharing :-)
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 01:23am on 14/06/2010
I'm glad you liked it!

There's a part of me that hates giving away pairings and warnings at the start, because it sort of ruins the story if you pretty much already know everything that's coming. But I totally understand the need to know those things.

I love fics where people are unfaithful, but I get the same way when I see it happen in someone's fic. If I don't know my guys are getting back together, it makes me really iffy about continuing.

Anyway, thanks :)
 
posted by [identity profile] roseisnotonfire.livejournal.com at 04:28am on 22/08/2010
Ok so I might have stumbled on to this story on fanfiction, then got rather upset when you didn't update at the speed of my liking and spend 3 hours learning how to work livejournal to find this story, make an account and read it, all of it. I also may have done this all in one night. Sleep is much need now dude to me staying up for 36 hours, I blame the amazing writing for my recurring insomnia.
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 12:10pm on 22/08/2010
Awww! I'm sorry you had to stay up so late, but I'm glad you liked the story :)

Thanks!
 
posted by [identity profile] lovemydean.livejournal.com at 03:33am on 17/10/2010
Hey, wanna read but no time right now ,is there a pdf/doc I can grab for later? Or if possible can u send through email: gemina494@yahoo.com. Thanks so much.
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 10:22am on 18/10/2010
Yeah, no problem. I can email you a doc file, I just need to find it first :) I'll get it to you as soon as I can.
 
posted by [identity profile] chanellem.livejournal.com at 07:58am on 31/12/2010
AH.... 15 chapters. At least I didnt see this while in school :DDD.

I'm never gonna finish my book ahahaha.
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 02:42pm on 31/12/2010
Yeah, this was a long one :)
 
posted by [identity profile] twasadark.livejournal.com at 04:05am on 29/01/2011
This looks lovely! I don't suppose you have it all in one file, by any chance? PDF or Word?
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 04:19am on 29/01/2011
I do actually have a pdf file around somewhere. At least I think I do. I'll be happy to email it to you if you want, just tell me where :)
 
posted by [identity profile] warpedminded.livejournal.com at 08:43pm on 26/06/2011
This story was so awesome! I loved every minute of it.

Is there a way you could sent me the pdf also? So I can read it again and again?

email is: warpedmindedyaoi@gmail.com
 
posted by [identity profile] misaki-kaito.livejournal.com at 06:29am on 14/02/2012
Would you be so kind as to send me a copy of this fic in either doc or pdf (pdf preferred) to me at misakikaito@gmail.com ?
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 06:27pm on 16/02/2012
I just sent it. Let me know if you didn't get it for some reason. Hope you enjoy :)
 
posted by [identity profile] pink-bagels.livejournal.com at 12:20am on 28/03/2012
Heyho! Would love to read this story as a pdf file, if you still have it. Thanks muchly! pinkbagels@gmail.com
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 08:30pm on 30/03/2012
Sent!
 
posted by [identity profile] angelandatardis.livejournal.com at 04:19am on 15/05/2012
oh, PDF OR WORD PLEASSEEEE

angelandatardis@gmail.com
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 02:27pm on 16/05/2012
sent!
 
posted by [identity profile] carla888.livejournal.com at 05:22am on 27/05/2012
I adore this story just so much that i want to rec it to those who may not have read it yet. So can I at spn mammoths? http://spn-mammoths.livejournal.com/ Just let me know yay or nay.

Thanks kisses,
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 01:44am on 28/05/2012
Yes of course, that's not a problem.

I'm glad you enjoyed this :)
 
posted by [identity profile] adameyezd.livejournal.com at 10:01am on 28/05/2012

Oooohhh, this sounds so good!

Thank god you've got a pdf!

Would you mind sending me the pdf please?

My email is: regina.mcgrath@yahoo.com

Thank you so much for offering to do this!

P.S. - Have always admired your icon - the cute yet fearsome girlrocker with all those lovely,vibrant colors. Often wondered if you drew her.
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 02:01am on 29/05/2012
Sent!

And thank you! That icon is pretty great, isn't it? Sadly I have no artistic talent at all, so I did not draw it. [livejournal.com profile] tashilover drew her for me :)
 
posted by [identity profile] tabithella.livejournal.com at 06:19pm on 28/05/2012
If I'm not too late could I get the PDF too.

tabithella@gmail.com

TIA
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 01:57am on 29/05/2012
Sent!
 
posted by [identity profile] dazedrose.livejournal.com at 09:20am on 21/07/2012
My beautiful dear.... May I pretty pretty pretty please have a PDF of this?? I feel the need to reread!!! My iPad is screaming for it!!
Dazedrose @ gmail.com

THANK YOU
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 07:30pm on 21/07/2012
Sent!
 
posted by [identity profile] epiphanein.livejournal.com at 10:54am on 12/08/2012
Hi, are you still sending pdf files of this? Please send to epiphanein13@yahoo.com. Thank you so much in advance!
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 04:45am on 14/08/2012
Sent!
 
posted by [identity profile] konstantinos vlachos at 03:42pm on 22/01/2013
i loved it!!!!! :D
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 06:10pm on 22/01/2013
Thanks!
 
posted by (anonymous) at 09:27pm on 22/01/2013
Is there a pdf for this? It looks like a great read and I'm going to be stuck on a train for most of tomorrow so would love to have the pdf.

Reyohmygod@gmail.com

Thanks a bunch!
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 10:14pm on 22/01/2013
sent!
 
posted by (anonymous) at 10:15pm on 22/01/2013
Wow, that was fast. I wasn't really expecting it that fast (to be fair I wasn't expecting it in time for tomorrow) but bless you!

I'll come back to tell you all about how amazing it is.

Rey

(I'll sign from now on so you know who this random anon is)
 
posted by (anonymous) at 03:20pm on 24/01/2013
Read it.

Damn, that was all kinds of angsty. I admit I was getting worried when Dean seemed to be indulging in his man-pain (SO MUCH MAN-PAIN) and Cas was a fucking asshole in the beginning, and Gabriel was a fucking asshole throughout but Sam was a sweety. Yay Sammy!

About the fic, though, it was well-written, the characters were IC (Cas mainly by his language and attitude, really) and the ending was so sweet and made even more so by the fact that the main body of the fic was just a clusterfuck of feelings and lies, self-indulgent man-pain, imbalanced relationships and cheating etc. The ending made it all worth it.

I don't mean to go on; just came to tell you this fic was great and I'm glad I stumbled across it, and even happier that you sent me the file in time for a 4 hour.train ride.
 
posted by [identity profile] luvonice.livejournal.com at 05:26pm on 04/02/2013
Could you please send pdf at rimalwolfram@gmail(dot)com
 
posted by [identity profile] rockstarpeach.livejournal.com at 05:43pm on 05/02/2013
sent
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